I had a chat with a coworker who has worked for my alma mater. It reminded me of a lot of things back in my high school days, which left me in a mood. My high school days were never flourishing.
Setting too ambitious a goal can leave you unpleasant feelings. I was studying hard to be admitted into Kyushu University, and now I know I was not a poorly scoring student, but nothing seemed to be working out for me. I lost my mental health because of my greediness.
People can live happiest lives when people spend time doing whatever they like. Setting a goal and being stoic doesn’t necessarily lead to a happy life. No matter how hard you train yourself, only a handful of people can be Olympic track and field athletes. People are living within our physical limits. You are not necessarily living a better life than you dud yesterday. Live yourself to do whatever you like! That’s the best life you can live!
When I graduaged from high school, I still wished to go on to university to study electronics, but I loved studying English with one of my English teachers. Thanks to him, I got to study English even after graduation before the end of the school year. I enjoyed studying English that I was not able to part with English. If I had been up to studying at an English speaking college, I would have kept on trying to be an engineer, our family were not rich enough. To reconciliate my ambition to become an engineer and keeping studying English at the same time, Kyushu University was not my best choice.
I loved studying the dialect here in Fukuoka and foreign languages at the same time, but I knew Tokyo is a monolingual society with only the Standard Japanese spoken. I hate getting excluded from society because of my Hakata dialect. I just wanted to have kept studying languages.
